about
Like my brief “about” to the left says, this is a strange blog title. Originally I hoped to turn this into a site where Christians like myself could upload their testimony in video or written form. My hope is to do that eventually (and maybe turn this site into “this is my story”?)
The content may seem as conflicted as the title. Writing a blog seems to be so self centered, writing about yourself… publishing stories about yourself. Your thoughts. Stuff nobody should really care about but you…
Perhaps my thought is that people who read this might enjoy it… but maybe I just want the world to revolve around me.
Maybe I’ve convinced myself that writing a blog would be a great way to make a name for myself on the internet, since, well… that is kind where I work. But really, what percentage of bloggers have had their careers hurt by writing a blog?
Maybe I’ve somehow got some delusion of gradier, that I have something to say that other people need to hear, or that nobody can say but me… maybe I want to turn my friends into people who see me as awesome, smart… witty… I dunno.
Perhaps I crave an audience because a part of me wants to be the receiver of glory, perhaps I’m writing this blog because I want to be like God.
I’ve found over the years that my intentions are never pure. I’m more than confident that there is a little bit of truth in all of the above. But there is more that I am convinced of.
I believe that all of my life does not belong to me. I believe that every muse, ever thought, every emotion and every craving is held captive by God through Jesus. I believe that although a sinner wrecked against the shores of my own creation, I am called child of God and that the Father rejoices over me. I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that I have been rescued from my sin, and given the strength to turn from sin and toward the everlasting God, to be given a hope and a joy greater than any of us could imagine.
I believe that my passions are not too strong that I sin, but that my passions are not strong enough to seek after God all the more.
My hope, my prayer, is that this blog would be one that tells my story, but tells the story of Christ. Not that I am Christ, but that Christ lives in me, and that this story is not my story but his.
This does not mean the blog will be about Religion. It does not mean that I will write daily of the glory of God (but who wouldn’t desire to do so?).
It means that I want to recognize with my tone and with my pursuit of humility, that I own nothing. That my story, my story belongs to Jesus, because I belong to him.
This blog will be about Jesus, it will be about work, about relaxation and fun, it will be about family, it will be about technology, it will be about random thoughts and random experiences with strange and unexpected events. But I hope to write in such a way that all the glory would point back to Jesus, that I would call nothing my own, and that in the end Jesus removes me as a barrier between what I write and what is read, and that what is read is understood, and that what is understood points to Jesus, and that all else that is errant is made clear to be my fault.
This is a strange title for a blog. What I hope to remember as I write is that my story - the part of God's story that has been entrusted to me - does not belong to me but to Jesus. He has purchased my life and death by his death on the cross. In the context of eternity all of human existence is but a small chapter, maybe a page in God's vast and unexplorable story. Within human history our age is a tiny one, and my life even smaller still. I hope to, but God's grace maintain that humility, and write to the glory of God.
